I’ve been putting a lot of thought into slippin’ out the back door unnoticed for awhile now, but the decent jerk in me feels like a sign off post would be the cool thing to do.
That sounds so self-important doesn’t it? Like I’m sittin’ here selling off locks of hair because you deserve to have them. This is some serious protocol shit here. I’m sorry. I know it’s corny. You love it, don’t lie.
It’s not supposed to sound self important. I’m just another peon hiding out in a very small corner of the internet like the rest of you peons. That doesn’t change the fact that I feel like I’ve made some real friends over the past year-plus. And despite how much it sucks for me to have to pull up the stakes on something that’s been so gratifying in so many ways – something that led to so many great memories and accomplishments – it’s just not fun to me anymore, and it hasn’t been for awhile.
But before I mosey on outta here I would like to talk about some serious stuff.
I read a lot of the posts the other day during the fallout, and I will say this about it: I’m not here to attack, defend, justify, or debate any of it here, and I kindly ask that you keep it out of the comment section on this site. In no way, shape, or form is that a criticism to any party involved, because I understand the severity of it. It’s just a preference of mine to not be involved publicly. Respect that.
Reading all of it was pretty overwhelming, and it scared the hell out of me – not just imaginary-blogging-bubble scared – real world scared. It was an example of just how quickly information can spread on the Internet, and it raised a lot of questions in my mind about the blogging arena from a legal, ethical, and personal safety standpoint.
I’ve never felt comfortable putting personal information on the Internet. In fact, I don’t even really like Facebook for that reason. I don’t like the thought of having certain information of mine available to anybody with an Internet connection. Although I do it on occasion, I usually end up regretting it. Once it’s out there and read, it’s too late to call it back.
It reminds me of the adage: “If all your friends jumped off a cliff, would you follow them?”
Like with everything, when everybody’s doing something it somehow creates this illusion that it’s safer, or more acceptable to do. A lot of people, including myself, have posted some pretty juicy stuff online – particular things that profile us, or mistake us for professional opinions.
This platform allows us to freely communicate our opinions and views on topics with a very wide audience. With that privilege, I think there should also be a certain amount of personal responsibility that comes along with it.
As far as the reality of this whole blogging platform goes, it’s an imaginary world – a fantasy – and sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in that fantasy aspect of it. It all sounds so poetic – and by design – like images from a movie, meant to stir the emotions of the reader. We look at the images of each other; we read the amazing words and stories pouring out of those pictures daily, and our minds naturally fill in the blanks. Basically, we profile each other.
We begin to trust in the stories. They appear to be consistent, and the images back them up. We like the people that are being created in our mind’s eye. The truth is, we never truly know the people that we’re communicating with online until we meet and learn about them in real life. Even then, discovery doesn’t happen overnight. It takes time to build a real life friendship. Online, we’re just acquaintances. And regardless of how many years we’ve been in contact with each other, we still don’t know each other.
It’s kinda like having an imaginary friend.
The reality is that people aren’t images and blog posts, and we consistently give our trust away to people that aren’t yet worthy of having it. It takes time to build trust, and to discover whether or not the persona matches the person.
Here, we’re all characters. Although the stories sound similar to our own experiences, it’s not reality.
I pulled my blog down a couple months go for that reason. There were things on this site that profiled me personally that I decided weren’t appropriate to have online. I keep my inner most thoughts and personal experiences now in a journal. It’s my preference, but maybe you might want to consider it too.
I built my shtick around comedy. It’s cathartic in a way, and I’ve always enjoyed interacting with everybody that pops in. I’m gonna grind that to a hault for now however, and say thank you so FUCKING much for being so cool and supportive of what I do. It’s something I’ve always enjoyed, and our interactions with each other have made it all that much better.
I’m gonna be writing at Long Awkward Pause from now on full-time, and I’d love to see all you guys around still. If the mood strikes me to write here again in the future, I’ll definitely come back and rock it. For now, I gotta bounce, yo.
And lastly, I’d love to have you guys share a story or something funny, or an interaction we had together, or something that you enjoyed about coming around here. It would seriously make my day. *Here’s a locket of hair in return*
Sooooo, with all that said, I think it would only be appropriate to end on this note: